do you feel better now as she falls to th ground?

"Last year i cry about whut..?"
"Syaf, ape lagy. Youh will only cry about one thing."






I think everyone saw me crying forh th past three days. People would stare and i'd try my very best to stop but i couldnt. I'm crying everywhere like a stupid chengeng girl. I really mean e v e r y w h e r e . I'm like a snooze button on an alarm clock, i might be laughing one minute and suddenly out of no where burst into tears th next. And then i will start giggling again and later cry some more. Its like a never ending cycle. Anything ppl say or do can trigger me to cry. I feel so pathetic, im so ashamed of how weak im becoming.


Th first time Rad told me, we were walking and i laughed it off saying "Haahs, da agak." Idky i suddenly stopped in my tracks and cried like fucking shit. I thought it wouldnt hurt anymore. But i was wrong. It still does. It still fucking does.


Thinking about my past is like walking through sharp knives. It hurts a hell lot but it takes a long time forh th cuts and wounds to heal. But it will heal. I know it will.


I think I have th best babygirls anyone can ever have. They're th ones with th endless supply of hugs. I've cried on their skirts like as if it were tissue paper, one even cried listening to my situation. Though we laughed at youh, i was sincerely touched. Ily girls ;') And not forgetting, th bestest boyfriend in th entire world. I received an offline message from Apic, forh th very first time, i didnt feel th urge to cry. I smiled and closed my eyes. Whye must i think abt th past when my present is almost perfect? I shouldnt make youh pay forh other people's mistakes. Because of youh, it doesnt hurt anymore. I love youh, panda.

I wont cry anymore coz Syafeekah stronggg, Syafeekah sapau! n___n