Syafeekah

goodbye, blogspot

2009-08-21T22:16:00.000-07:00

its time for a change.

today i ate like a fat girl

2009-08-21T09:08:00.000-07:00

so yesterday we had 5periods of literature in th AVA room with Mdm Rozila. 5periods. it was th best literature lesson i ever had. watched Babel, there was so many touching scenes i wanted to cry but there was so much porn pls! the guys were so disappointed to see th japanese girl had small tits. hahaha. my class is so cute. Babel's storyline is amazing. its a must watch movie.

i've been thinking of transferring from f&n to art. actually no, i hadnt. mel is th one who's influencing me saying that f&n will give me a F9 and art will give me an A. hmmm idk, i did failed f&n and i do like doing art.... ahhhhh. Mel should be a sales manager. she's so good at convincing people!

im sick of blogspot already. switch to tumblr maybe?

padehal lamerh lagy hahaha

2009-08-21T08:56:00.000-07:00

besuk da start puase!

momok2 smue nanty da taade!

tak lama lagy pun da rayeeeeee!

uhuuuuuu~

i was in my room all along.

2009-08-19T07:19:00.001-07:00

brother: woii, kat nerh? ikut dorg pegy Giant ey?
me: huh? errr. uh uhh. knape?

brother: babi, abg sorang pt umah. tak nmpk pun kau klua. korang da pat dlm kreta?
me: uh uhhhh~

brother: belikn facial wash

me: okehhh

i crawled out my bedroom silently and tried my best to stop giggling. he was using th computer and his face was truly priceless when he screamed after seeing me.

im still laughing like mad as im typing this, this just happened two minutes ago
hahahahahahahahahhahaha

sape mau layan?

2009-08-19T07:19:00.000-07:00

this week hasnt been fantastic

cut short, i was HIGHLY irritated

those on th third level witnessed a free show after recess

please, i didnt know people of such extreme low class still exists

youh call yourselves girls?

ILY BESTFRIEND

2009-08-17T09:19:00.000-07:00

TIMECHECK 0145AM

CURRENTLY WATCHING WISHING STAIRS WITH SHAHEEDAH
WE TALKED FROM 7 TO 12 NON STOP
OUR DADDY DUE2 CAN KAMCHENG HO READYY~!

YAY YAY FINALLY WE'RE BACK

I MISS OUR MINI SLEEPOVERS

BUT I HAVE SCHOOL TMR HAHAHA

KEH FUCK IT

MET BOYFIE JUST NOW SO HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYY <3

i want that michael jackson top

2009-08-16T11:52:00.000-07:00

i know how to tie gaga hairbow do you do you!

2009-08-16T11:51:00.000-07:00

sunday

hmmmmmmmmmm. i was supposed to get my clear contact lenses this weekend. im like a blind bat in school. but th shops i go to are all fucked up. i found out im nt short sighted. i have astigmatism. wah sounds like a disease old ppl would have. but then its literally almost th same thing as myopia. on friday i kept repeating th word kuntalamasuntek. whut it means? i also dunno. syed ajar~ today i slept frm evening. apic woke me up. then i fell asleep online. woke up again. now unable to sleep. its 2am now. i wanted to take a shower but mdm rozila's bathroom stories scares me. i'll bathe in th morning then. i miss apic, hopefully will be able to meet later <3

goodnight heartbreakers,

chomby has a new friend named momok n_n

2009-08-16T11:36:00.000-07:00

friday/saturday

i woke up at 12

girls are coming over at 1.30

its now 1.20

i havent bathe hahaha!

guys&girls, thank youh forh yesterday

glen thank youh forh th listening ear

syahirah thank youh forh taking away my phone

adli, sorry forh th footprint on yourh chest

sister, thank youh forh th ipod touch

and, i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh i love youh

dont youh believe me?

do you feel better now as she falls to th ground?

2009-08-13T05:11:00.000-07:00

"Last year i cry about whut..?"
"Syaf, ape lagy. Youh will only cry about one thing."

I think everyone saw me crying forh th past three days. People would stare and i'd try my very best to stop but i couldnt. I'm crying everywhere like a stupid chengeng girl. I really mean e v e r y w h e r e . I'm like a snooze button on an alarm clock, i might be laughing one minute and suddenly out of no where burst into tears th next. And then i will start giggling again and later cry some more. Its like a never ending cycle. Anything ppl say or do can trigger me to cry. I feel so pathetic, im so ashamed of how weak im becoming.

Th first time Rad told me, we were walking and i laughed it off saying "Haahs, da agak." Idky i suddenly stopped in my tracks and cried like fucking shit. I thought it wouldnt hurt anymore. But i was wrong. It still does. It still fucking does.

Thinking about my past is like walking through sharp knives. It hurts a hell lot but it takes a long time forh th cuts and wounds to heal. But it will heal. I know it will.

I think I have th best babygirls anyone can ever have. They're th ones with th endless supply of hugs. I've cried on their skirts like as if it were tissue paper, one even cried listening to my situation. Though we laughed at youh, i was sincerely touched. Ily girls ;') And not forgetting, th bestest boyfriend in th entire world. I received an offline message from Apic, forh th very first time, i didnt feel th urge to cry. I smiled and closed my eyes. Whye must i think abt th past when my present is almost perfect? I shouldnt make youh pay forh other people's mistakes. Because of youh, it doesnt hurt anymore. I love youh, panda.

I wont cry anymore coz Syafeekah stronggg, Syafeekah sapau! n___n

MALAYSIA HOME FORH THREE DAYS DAYS DAYS DAYS

2009-08-10T04:06:00.000-07:00

GGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

2009-08-10T03:56:00.000-07:00

This is how i felt during ~~National Day.~~

I'm back from Malaysia. I was in a happy state until my phone got reception. Compared to my sister's multiple mxges, i received only one. I opened my inbox. VOICEMAIL. When I reached home, I threw my phone to the wall. I survived without my phone forh three days so whye not a while longer? Rase majuk aderh, marah aderh, binget aderh, sedei aderh, penat aderh, SMUE ADERH LA!

IM SO ANGRY I DONT EVEN KNOW WHUT TO TYPE TO SHOW HOW ANGRY I FUXKING AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE MY PEOPLE !

2009-08-07T08:45:00.000-07:00

WARNING: MASSIVE PHOTO POST

Hello Crestians! I love PRCS national day celebrations~ I dont think other schools celebrate this occasion like PRCS does. It beats other schools' hands down! For starters, we had th mass walk in th morning with class mascots leading th way. My favourite is definitely th Lion. And also Phua Chu Kang frm th Sec4s, Syed's PAP uniform and Adli's god knows what antennas. Hahaha!

After th mass walk, we headed straight to th hall forh Crestians Got Talents. I think us sec3s paling kecohh, pekik2 cm nmpk Taufik Batisah~ At first, we supported Azlin ONLY but in th end idk how we ended up cheering forh everyone else. Kenal tark kenal, sahbulei jerrh support. Those sitting around us mukerh satu2 binget psl biseng. Hahaha!

The guitarist was definitely an epic fail. Like sumpah wtf siul~ And it was quite mean when everyone boo-ed anak kambing when he came up stage just because he is Shafie's son. Overall, perut cm nark pecah siul ktawe2 non stop~ This is whut happens when youh put two syafiqahs together. Heehs!

Before th results, Aishah and Fashihah's rendition of Katy Perry's Thinking of You was soooooo gooooood~ And of course when th National Day songs are played, th sec5s frm th back stood up and did th traditional train up th stage. Ramai nark ikut tapy tark menjadi. Hahahaha!

Congratulations to Nazri&Zhafran forh winning Crestians Got Talent!

Nisaa was so cute tark abes2, "nark sayaaang", "nark kiss bulei!", "kalau dhie sec4 kaan besttt." Hahahah! Aduiii~ Budak sec2 pun dhie narkkk.

After school, headed to Downtown to mamammm. Was supposed to meet Apic but he was late so I stayed at Tasik with th rest playing cards and musical chairs. Heehs! Case tgh mendak luhh kannn~

In th end, didnt managed to meet Apic coz his friend anuh motor pey lameeeerhhh~ Reached hme, masai2 switched on air con, played with th laptop, less than 5mins, bam! tidu tatawu brape jam until Apic's call woke me up. Now here I am since everyone is pestering me forh photos. Amek kao! heehs! I liked todayyy~

even a thousand miles cant keep us apart

2009-08-06T07:17:00.000-07:00

"Our love is like th wind. I cant see it, but I can feel it."

- Landon Carter, A Walk To Remember

Happy 7 months, Muhammad Syafiq Bin Jani

:((((

2009-08-05T08:40:00.000-07:00

ONE

Wan: Kao asal sia nak ajar syafeekah bukan2? Budak kecik siul~

Ali Imran: Ferm tark ferm! Aku da kenal die tige tahun daa. Kao lum tawu sia org die cmnerh. Hahaha!

TWO

Cikgu Ridzuan: Ya allah, kan semua da keliru! Ini smue gare2 syafiqah si budak kecil ni la!

THREE

Syafeekah: "This is... HOME! TRULY! TRULYYYYY!"

Syed: Suare kau sumpah cm budak kecik siahh. Short lak tuhh~

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I WANNA GROWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!! >:((((

im young, im fly

2009-08-02T10:21:00.002-07:00

i was soo exhausted since i slept at 3am and woke up at 6am

plus super hungry coz i hadnt eaten since morning

i ate my super stim nasi lemak with my eyes half closed

tark sampai satu min bareng pt bag, i fell asleep just like that~

bus-ed back with fee,

mxged boyfie and KO straight.

got woken up to go to tamp with sister

shop shop shop

had bento forh dinner followed by long talks

it was a nice sister outing~

now i miss night trainings at th studio

this was definitely th most exhausting but meaningful sunday i've had so far~

i wouldnt mind doing this again!

n___n

random random cannot sleep anxious!(&^%$$@

2009-08-02T10:06:00.000-07:00

korang nak nguk nenek kropok?

ini diaaaaaa!

heeehs! kehh joke, thats maya&kak yaya.

cant believe that girl can fit into that bag. haha!

i ran 2.4km with maya, practiced dance steps, did sit ups, pumpings, crunches. amazing or whut? haha.

gotta wake up super early tomorrow but i cant sleep!

i feel like letting go..

2009-08-01T08:08:00.000-07:00

if not forh th tracker, i wouldnt know someone had started tagging others saying stupid immature things using my blog link. whye not use my name too? but i dont give a fuck coz these kind of 'special' people just needs attention which they lack severely of. makbapak da meninggal kutt thats whye prangai gyni mcm~

good morning, august.

2009-07-31T20:48:00.000-07:00

woke up in th middle of th night, i've been listening to this playlist till morning. idky i suddenly feel this way. i remembered my talks with rafikah. i told her i want to become a lot of things. i started recalling from my past until now. from primary school days to here. i thought about what i had achieved so far. what have i achieved?

im sorry if i ignored phonecalls/mxges. i dont feel like talking to anyone at all.

i spent the entire night with mummy listening and telling her nenek kropok stories. she's th only one who makes my school mornings better, making me going out th door everyday thinking, "my mum is th best."

i took this as my motto, and i've always repeated it over and over in my head.

if im going to be alive, i might as well be incredible.

i want to do more than just exist.

im going to dance practice now.

my dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room

2009-07-31T20:01:00.000-07:00

finally the weekends are here~

this week has been sooo exhausting.

i've been perpetually late to school almost everyday.
but whut happened in th morning really pissed me off.

i missed abt 3periods staying in th office like budo. fuck th botak tengah consellor. dhie ye org tarklei branak kut tu psl taade keje carik psl ngn anak org laen~ bin xiang saw th entire thing and asked me to relax relax relax. rafikah said i came to class "muke fierce semcm". -_-

NYAA ceremony was alright. everyone forgot to bring cameras. I had rafikah sitting beside me so it would be less mundane. faruk accidentally salam th GOH instead of giving a firm handshake. funny.

while walking home, i was scaring myself by remembering mdm rozila's ghost stories. but i laughed to myself too thinking of how she told it.

didnt go for dance.

no, not tonight.

happy birthday,

2009-07-31T19:59:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, FARAH NADIA!

HOPE YOUH HAD A NICE ONE~ 

SKINNY, MUST EAT MORE KEHH!

WHEEEEEEEEEE~

syahirah, get well soon

2009-07-30T07:26:00.000-07:00

hi guys, im so dead tired.

this week has been truly truly hectic
syahirah got sent home due to high fever. poor bby, get well soon
phototaking was sad, i wasnt with ANY of my girls. all mood fucked up bcoz of mdm kamisah

my days are packed with tests, exams, cca, dance~
th performance on sunday if not wrong
im praying i wont screw up~

alsooooo,
happy belated birthday rina&adli fatboy
headed to azlin's crib just now forh their 'post-celebration'
soooo masai satu2
zul&i started going thru his tagged
wuishhh~ regret tengokkk.

geog paper tomorrow
so is NYAA ceremony
im not really looking forward to wait silently for hours just to go up stage to receive a scroll
i duwan to listen to Dr Ong's longlonglong 'essential' speech
lagy2 sitting without my girls. how?

i miss apic panda.

stupid heavy rain just now got me all wet

2009-07-27T08:45:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SHAHEEDAH!
i've given youh a six paged mxg
so i wont repeat it here again
nevertheless, ily babygurl! <3

okehh im done with tatty teddy compo. science common test tmr. class and cca photo-taking too. timecheck 12.25am. super sleepy. gotta get ready my full uniform. then off to bed. goodnight, lovelies~

i used to be lovedrunk, but now im hungover

2009-07-25T11:42:00.000-07:00

I was already planning to spend my Saturday staying home and watch all th korean movies Syahirah and Wan tengku introduced me when i received a call from Shaheedah.
We wore matching tops and we talked like as if we had just met yesterday. I miss this gala girl of mine~
Headed to bugis then to town to meet boyfie then her friends. Soon after, took 518 to head home. We made th most noise in th bus and everyone was staring. I laughed till i cried and spilled peach milk tea all over her shirt. Reached home at ard 1. I saw kitty waiting outside our door. I ignored and slammed it in her face.
Gonna remove my make up now then head to sleeeeeep,
goodnight world. ♥

RIP MUHAMMAD CHARLIE OBAMA

2009-07-24T21:40:00.001-07:00

RIP MUHAMMAD CHARLIE OBAMA

Few days ago, I was laughing at this picture thinking how cute this was. Days later, it really happened.

It was in th morning and I literally jumped off th double-decker bed after realising whut that cat had just did. But it was too late. I went to school and told my friends whut happened. One by one, they laughed. Horrible people! Only Rafikah and Apic sympathise with me. Rafikah gave me a blind bear with no eyes to remind me of Charlie. Um.

After school, I told Zikri to bacerh Surah Yassin ramai2. He laughed and thought i was joking. I was serious taww. :(

I came home, my brother da tanam Charlie in my mother's plants. This one, i laughed like hell. Kehh2 shh, must respect th dead. I told my mummy to doakan forh Charlie when she prays, she said its a friday night so my hamster will masuk syurga. n__n

Everybody hates th cat now. I dun even wna let her in. She looks so sad. But she killed my hamster. Haiyerh.

Tu laaaa, sape suroh simpan Tom&Jerry pat umah. :'(

heeeeeeeeeeeeee!

2009-07-23T04:59:00.000-07:00

Apic says i am Snorlax coz all i do is eat and sleep all day.
Hahahahaha! Cute kan!
n__n

i spend too much time watching american tv shows

2009-07-22T05:12:00.000-07:00

hi korang~ today was a drag. school is less funny without ryan ): math common test is tomorrow but i can still spend my time watching prison break. hahaha. shitttt~

yesterday, apic came all the way to pasir ris just to watch harry potter with me. it was so sweeeeeeeet coz he doesnt watch harry potter at all yet he went anyway coz i wanted to see it so badly. even though he slept halfway through ♥

but seriously, the movie was shit. SO DISAPPOINTING ): rather read th damn book. oh yahhh! im waiting forh Mel to finish her Deathly Hollows but its killing me to waittt. Sabilaa, pinjam buleiii? n__n

anyway, i was chatting with maie bby th other night, wahhh hati terbakar skjap siul bbual psl last year~ but maie, smile okehhhhhh. im here whenever, wherever!

syafeekah is a geeky harry potter fan

2009-07-19T09:20:00.000-07:00

i rushed home like mad just to watch cedric diggory die
it was soooooo tragic, his cute handsome face kene avada kedavra by Voldemort ):

i've read all th books since primary school
so i know all th endings
except Deathly Hallows

now i wanna watch Order of th Pheonix again before Half-blood Prince
apicccc, jum tgk harry potter jummmmmm~!

shisha with schoolies

2009-07-19T08:53:00.000-07:00

we were supposed to meet at two, i woke up at four
i was so irritated by my hair extensions, i bought scissors at Popular and asked Rad to cut them away
i have short hair
everything was fine until zikri puked in the train.

forever is over

2009-07-18T09:41:00.001-07:00

fatfood + more laughters = happy girl

first thing, we finally completed our malay project! we spent three days trying to complete it like mad. at one point, satu2 muke stress. so syahirah drew forh me kening tebal habesss and fake eyelashes using black MARKER.
on friday, my phone died. i forgot to bring my charger to school~ we were having spotchecks. after recess, everyone started hiding handphones and cigarettes in th most unimaginable places. tapy in th end, ta kene check pun. haha! went to pasir ris park, abit annoyed la. azlin&faiz taught me how to play babi, i swear after that i couldnt stop laughing. highlight was definitely syed and rina's. hahahaha im laughing as im typing thisss~ i also literally slapped shazwan with my cards. heehs! sorryyy.

saturday, decided to stayhome to watch potter. suddenly had thoughts of hari raya. i cant wait~ at night, headed to chai cheeeee~ maya, sorry yerhhh tark pegy vivo ):

timecheck 3.14AM. cant sleeeeep~ mxged apic but he's asleep. im contemplating on going shisha with schoolmates tmr but all i want to do is sleep all day.

oh yah, ade org terjun yerh depan skula? eeeeeeeeee

whye does my posts have alot of quotations these days? hahaha youtube selowww

2009-07-15T04:57:00.000-07:00

Glen: i tell youh one joke okeh?
Syafeekah: no no nooo~ i tell youh one!
Glen: keh2 whut?
Syafeekah: hahaha kehh eyh. how to irritate Lady Gaga?
Glen: er dunno. go gaga?
Syafeekah: wtf. no. give up?
Glen: give up.
Syafeekah: poke her face!
* laughs uncontrollably*
Glen: *stares* walande not funny siah!

nabil, now i know tasik hijau where readyyy hahahaha!

2009-07-14T07:18:00.000-07:00

ѕyaғeeĸaн, says (10:15 PM):
syah, besuk puase jum!
Syahirah says (10:16 PM):
hahahahaha !
*insert name* marah kau jgk pe ?
ѕyaғeeĸaн, says (10:16 PM):
HAHAHA
cb budo kao
ѕyaғeeĸaн, says (10:17 PM):
tark uhh. narie aku makan giler babi siul
abey org smue da start puase
jummm!
Syahirah says (10:18 PM):
ehhhhhhhh ???
hahahaa
serious pe ?
ѕyaғeeĸaн, says (10:21 PM):
serious la!
aku gemuk sangat kerh smpai tark caye
Syahirah says (10:21 PM):
yelaaah2
aku puase lahhh
tapi kejot aku sahur uhhh
ѕyaғeeĸaн, says (10:22 PM):
HAHAHA
tark gune uh kau
Syahirah says (10:22 PM):
hahahahahhaa !
ehhh , i need to sahur sia
kau nk aku tergolek kat sch ?
dahlah bsk p.e
hahah
ѕyaғeeĸaн, says (10:23 PM):
eyh
postpone thursday la gytu
... :D
Syahirah says (10:23 PM):
-_-
Syahirah says (10:24 PM):
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA !
tak gunerrr .
hahahahahahahahhahaa ~

oh yah, did youh know my favourite lesson is f&n now? wheeeee~

Cassie: I didn't eat for 3 days so I could be lovely

2009-07-11T06:49:00.000-07:00

I've just completed th entire season three of Skins. To me, this is by far th only show in years that could top The OC.

Emily: [crying] What do you do, if someone you love let's you down? When that person really fucking fucks you over?
Thomas: You must try to stop loving them.
Emily: And is that really possible?
Thomas: ... No. I dont think so.

its in th abc of growing up

2009-07-11T02:40:00.000-07:00

Its Saturday night and its raining heavily. Stayed home alone since its my turn to be down with a fever. Hmmm. I watched Skins th entire day. Having th raindrops tapping on th windows while listening to Menyesal by Ressa Herlembang makes me feel very sentimental~

Yesterday, I diligently completed my Physics during Self Study period while th rest around me slept like pigs. Ryan sat behind me playing with my hair till one of my extensions came off while Glen listens to my stories and tells me advice like he always do during lower sec days. Its weird how im much closer to th chinese guys than th malays in class.

After school, I went to NCC HQ to accompany Syahirah and help hand in Rafikah's No. 1 uniform. There was this really cute tiny kitten there, I was so tempted to put it in my bag and bring it home. We then sat at McDonalds forh more than two hours laughing so hard i wanted to cry.

Todayy, I stayed home because i finally got th fever i deserved. woke up and chat with boyfie, how i wish he could takecare of me right now. and later in th evening had a joint convo with raddy, zikri, adli and rahman on msn. i keep on laughing and laughing like stupid in front of th computer. i think rad was doing th same. hahahaha.

Tonight, I feel very jiwang. I dun feel like laughing or watching Family Guy to make me happy. Yat is telling me abt him going into remand. I dun really care.
I cant sleeeeeeeeeeeep. Im lazy to continue.

ahchooooooooooooo

2009-07-09T04:11:00.000-07:00

ynoe just now in th AVA room, everyone was silently doing their karangan while i was th only idiot blowing my nose loudly forh everyone to hear. i still keep sneezing non stopp, hidong da cm paip rosak smpai hingus terdrip pt physics textbook and in th morning my voice sound like boy coz i got a very bad sore throat. my head keeps spinning now and then but when i checked my temperature in school only 37.3. how? ):

i didnt get to see MJ funeral on tv boooooo

2009-07-09T03:27:00.000-07:00

sec2 pictures :D

during th last period, i think me and rafikah were making th most noise while ppl sitting nearby looked at us like as if we were crazy. those who are friends with her should know that she speaks oh so slooowwwllyyyyyy. if she tries to talk fast, she will mumble idk whut.

syafeekah: raf, yr handphone jato~
rafikah: *gives shocked look* BELI DIA JATI?! (bile dia jato)
syafeekah: huh? HAHAHAHAHA!

after school,

Radiah: syaf, asal kau pegang tangan aku?
Syafeekah: eyh sorry, aku pikir tangan kau railing siul!

hate wednesdays

2009-07-08T07:54:00.000-07:00

i have a really bad flu today i finished up all my friends tissue paper

i miss you.

home home homeboy, come on

2009-07-07T07:53:00.001-07:00

Today i decided to stop singing Glamour Bitch by Milano which my friends loooooves very much hahahahaha and sing th Cobra Starship song instead because Leighton Meester is in it! Okeh now i have to complete my F&N, maths (!!), physics and umm, what else? My sister and i are watching oldie bands like backstreetboys and toybox and nysnc and westlife on youtube i think i'll be asleep by th time i wna get started on my assignments -_-

Syafeekah: mcm nk nangis uhhhhhhh
Radiah: must be strong maynnn. kau strong girl tk? strong girl taamu nanges. cume babatgirl jeh nanges. kau nanges, kau babatgirl~ tanak kaan
Syafeekah: hahahahaha!

i am ungrateful.

2009-07-04T12:12:00.000-07:00

tonight i didnt get to see fireworks ):
i saw syahirah crying again. i didnt know whut to do.
usually im th one crying and she's th one pujok-ing.
i wanted to hug her and tell her everything's okay.

im so lazy to blog.
a picture tells a thousand words right?
here you go.

my favourite two

2009-07-04T11:58:00.000-07:00

my sister keeps on watching MJ's videos, idky?
all his videos are like 10mins long and i never bother to watch them full except these two.
you'll notice he has this signature move of flicking his fingers beneath his chin.

would be sexy if he didnt look like.. um.

THE END!

2009-07-04T09:09:00.000-07:00

I found this rehearsal video on th net. Sadly, no one dropped their rifle during th real deal~

Finaaaaallly!
PRCS 10th Anniversary has come to an enddddddd~

Almost the entire school did a part to make the day such a grand event. All th different CCAs were assigned different holding rooms but i kept coming over to NCC to be with my girls since not much people in SJAB wana joke around with me ):

I will miss listening Basshunter's In Her Eyes and Please Dont Stop The Music repeatedly every afternoon now~

nabeytengteng

2009-07-03T09:14:00.000-07:00

why is blogger being such a bitch and not let me upload my photos?

lets put on a show

2009-07-02T20:45:00.000-07:00

This th video i wanted to show raf&syah, hahahaa! family guy always makes me smile~

PRCS 10th Anniversary is in a few hours. its 12pm noww, i've just woke up. feels sooo nice to get my long sleep again. yesterday, my spiderman bbys left me alone to wait forh rehearsal to start. so i went with azlin and th guys to zikri's house. i won farhan&nabil so easily in taiti. it felt weird being with others coz im forever with my girls so i played with his kittycat till rehearsal starts. andd during break, i've got my cheesy hearts from cottage pies! thank youh for buying that forh me, korangg~

okeh i cant wait to see th PDS coz they're all so synchronized and perfect, i wish Aizat or Ashraf would drop their rifle. kehh, kidding.

wish me luck forh later, hope i dont screw up!

rather waste my time with you

2009-07-01T03:56:00.000-07:00

hi happy friends~

i like all my f&n mates, they're all nice and funny people. can make me laugh through the entire 3periods non stoppppp. really!

umm i finally came forh rehearsals. i messed up everything coz i havent gone forh so long~
buttttt after that during break, i pushed away th food and ran all th way to my pretty no.1 uniformed bestfriends to have a shoulder to cry on. ):

okeh anyway, i think those in number one uniform looked reaaaally good. i told pariz dhie da cm pkai sjab uniform trus bagy muke tark perlu. haaahs! i wish i was part of them and not th stupid mass display. ):

oh well. tmr's MY cca day and i have to wear MY uniform th entire day. my beret plus nametag dunno where ready, haha! keh fuck it~

Farhan: syafeekah,
Syafeekah: yerhhh?
Farhan: bishan pe? hahahaha!
Syafeekah: diam budo~!

asal sibuk?

2009-06-29T07:51:00.000-07:00

Mrs Ang: Class, what is a mole?
Class: Farhan

today, school sucked to the maximummmmmm~

i slept at 5 and woke up at 6. i keep laughing in class today idky? especially during recess coz that one case kuangaja nark mampus. hahahaha. during geography, i gave up and doze off. hate hate hate. oh yah, tark perlu siul smpai rembat glen gytu mcm~ da jady baru th guys kesiankn, sblum tuh tanak tolong. tark gune~ and at last i finally got to eat my fish&co express again. heee besttt~ th three of us talked like makciks till dawn. radiah, i miss youhh.

the night before, maya&tasya came over again. thinking about whut happened still makes me laugh. buruk siul prangai satu2. heehs!

whye greenview dpt 1week off but my school like cb got common test next week?

thank youh forh making my day

2009-06-27T14:31:00.000-07:00

I ♥ you

humans are hypocritical

2009-06-27T14:25:00.000-07:00

I've been sleeping at 5 or 6am these days. How to wake up forh skool giniyyyyy! Im not done with my hmwk AT ALL, syah call me tark gune ): Haha! I saww aishah nash's flickr omgggggg wow wow amazing editing skills~ got future readyy! Heehs! I miss having her to huggg in school~

It irritates me to read quotes from people about how they loved Michael Jackson and how he changed lives. From what I remembered, everyone criticized him greatly making fun of everything abt him and even calling him Wacko Jacko. Now everyone's lamenting about how we will dearly miss our King of Pop? Its so annoying how hypocritical humans can be.

"Why not just tell people I'm an alien from Mars. Tell them I eat live chickens and do a voodoo dance at midnight. They'll believe anything you say, because you're a reporter. But if I, Michael Jackson, were to say, 'I'm an alien from Mars and I eat live chickens and do a voodoo dance at midnight,' people would say, 'Oh, man, that Michael Jackson is nuts. He's cracked up. You can't believe a damn word that comes out of his mouth.'"

—Michael Jackson

baby are you down down down

2009-06-25T12:00:00.000-07:00

nihh gamba i think when i was Primary6. heeehs! found so much old photos/memories last nighttt~ i've been blogging so much lately. is that bad or good (?) oh yahh, i realised how cheem my english was last tyme! always scored an A forh it. py skrg da hancurrrrrr~ ):

so in th evening, i went to spend quality time studying with tasyaa bby at loyang point then downtown subway. haaahs! i neeeeda finish my assignments quickkk~ whye must school start so soooooon? decided not to go to malaysia this weekend coz i cant bear to leave that sapau boy though i would love to be quarantined forh a week to finish my workkkk!

until the next post, goodbye my best confidante! xoxo

confirm lepas niy kene maki!

2009-06-25T11:44:00.000-07:00

hahaahhahahahahahah
ahahahahahahahahaha
hahahahahahaahhaha
hahahahahahahaha!!

cant sleeeeeeep

2009-06-24T16:55:00.000-07:00

Hi korang,
0445AM. I cant sleeeeeep.

PS: I am reading my previous blogs when i was in primary school and sec1.

PPS: I'm covering my mouth coz im trying my best not to laugh at th pictures and wake my tired sister.

PPPS: This is one of th pictures im trying my veryyyyyy best not to laugh at.

:(

2009-06-24T05:21:00.000-07:00

i feel so bad tark pegy ngan tasyaa narie.

sorry syg, tady kene gy melawat pt woodlands~

hope youh had a nice birthday n__n

mummy: asal narie google dah cm laen ey?

syafeekah: ni facebook, mahh.

To Nur Atasha Binte Roslan,

2009-06-23T10:14:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TASYAA BBY~
YAY YAY SKRG KITERH DUE DA FIFTEEN SEYHH
DA JADY KAKAK2 DAAA~
TINGGAL MAYA JERHH MASEY ADEK2 LAH KANNN~ HEEHS!
HOPE YOU'LL ENJOY YOURH DAY LATER~
THANKS FORH BEING TH SWEEEEETEST FRIEND!
ILY MANY MANY MWAAAAHHHHHHHHH XOXO

wedding + unecessary photos

2009-06-22T10:13:00.000-07:00

This huge frame broke into millions of pieces a few minutes after I came. I think I bring bad aura~

I got woken up by a mxg from Twinnie asking me to get dressed in blue and go downstairs to her block. I got nothing blue so I wore my primary school baju kurong cm budak kampong (kiwek singkat siul) and went to help out her sister's wedding.

Nothing eventful since I knew no one there. Except th part when we were otw back from th groom's side at tampines in Lina's uncle's car, he was racing with th other car superfast i screamed like fuck when th car suddenly swerved to turn until my things all flew to th side~ sumpah kekek if youh see everyone's faces. Baby nadia sukerh siah!

___________________________________

Met these two babygirls at Whitesands. I had th most embarassing moment in th lift. HAHAHA haiyaaaa malu smpai skrg!! Trimmed my hair and proceed to townnnn. Finally got my hair extensions but i dun really like it. Not used to having long hair cuz tangan gatal asek nark potong anddddd it looks so fake eeeee i feel like pulling it out noww~

I forgot it was a wide sleeved shirt and i didnt wear a tube naaaaaseb pkai hitaaaaaam~!

After that went to KFC to meet boyfie forh only awhile coz I had to send my sister off. Dpt tawuu, my sister da pegy siangg. Kimekk~ In th train otw to my crib, we were in th same cabin with Yat, Zahir, Muhaimin all. Tark bulei tahan part mirror image i wanted to show Maya. Hahaha!

So we went to my crib and made alot of noise. Hahaha! Camwhored like crazy and talked and talked till tasyaa tertidu. Heee! I gave away my clothes to them coz I have too much. They asked whye tark jual, I rather give forh free than sell~

Kehhh dahhhhh korang lei amek gamba im doneee! Tarkmu prangai py blog psl pt lift, warning eyhhhh!! Heeehs! I love these two very muchie~ Hmmmm. Boredddd. Timecheck 0426AM. Currently chatting with Maya, Shaheedah, Meo and Acap. Im not sleepyyy. I miss apic. How?

Girl: Hi, my friend pat atas tuh nark yourh number.
*Maya ktawe2*
Me: Umm sape?
Girl: Tuh pat atas. Buleiii?
Me: Dahde boyfiee. Tuhhhhhh pt sblah. *points to th right
Girl: Eh alamakk. *walks away

Tasya, Maya and I look up. Satu2 tgk apic trus lincah2 cabot~

Tark sangke muke youh fierce sgt. Haaahs. Mekk prangaaai adek2 siahhhh~
Kay lurh nitey nite peeeeepoooossssss!

klaw youh ginie i lock youh pat dlm toilet tark bagy klua!

2009-06-20T12:21:00.000-07:00

-Perkara-perkara yang berlaku sebelum dan selepas berkahwin-

1. Bila jalan tersungkur batu...
Sebelum kahwin: "Sayang, intan payung, you ok tak darling? Bodoh punye batu!"
Selepas kahwin: "Eh, buta eh? Mata letak kat mana? Pantat?"

2. Bila berpakaian seksi...
Sebelum kahwin: "Seksi nye you hari ni, macam I nak gigit-gigit you sekarang jugak!"
Selepas kahwin: "Ni ape ni, tetek terjojol, nampak longkang! Dengan babat berlipat-lipat! Tak malu eh?"

3. Bila menjamu selera...
Sebelum kahwin: "Hmmm... sedapnye you masak. Tak sia-sia I pilih you tau!"
Selepas kahwin: "Ni ape ni?! Nasi lemak ke, nasi basi!"

4. Bila mahu bermanje di depan orang ramai...
Sebelum kahwin: "Manja nye you ni. Cium sikit sayang! Firm nye pantat you!"
Selepas kahwin: "Eh, ape ni pegang-pegang! Tangan tak tau diam eh? Tunggu balik rumah bole tak? Tak malu eh orang tengok?!"

5. Bila selisih faham...
Sebelum kahwin: "Sorry eh Sayang. Memang salah I. I ni matahir tak guna! Jangan merajuk lagi ye Sayang."
Selepas kahwin: "Salah you, you nak suruh I cakap Sorry! Banyak cantik muka you! Nak merajuk, merajuk la!"

6. Sanggup berkorban apa saja...
Sebelum kahwin: "Takpe Sayang, I tak kisah. I sanggup buat apa saja untuk you. I fetch you later eh?"
Selepas kahwin: "You ni, takde kepala otak ke yang I ni penat baru balik kerja. Apa salahnya you balik sendiri. Manja sangat ah!"

7. Bila nak letak talipon...
Sebelum kahwin: "Bye Sayang. I love you sayang! Muah! Muah! MUAAAAHHH!"
Selepas kahwin: "Eh, ok la! Bye la, bye la! Tak boleh, kawan I kat sebelah la!"

8. Bila make-up tebal...
Sebelum kahwin: "Cantik nye you hari ni. Eye shadow you lawa la! Berseri-seri muka you!"
Selepas kahwin: "Ni ape ni?! Make-up ke topeng?!"

9. Bila sampai lambat...
Sebelum kahwin: "Takpe Sayang. Asalkan you selamat sampai."
Selepas kahwin: "Takpe la. Da biasa da!"

10. Bila nak melepaskan angin...
Sebelum kahwin: "You kentot eh sayang? Hehehehehe! Cute la you ni!" *cubit-cubit*
Selepas kahwin: "Oi, asal bole kentot je eh!" *pukul-pukul badan*

what if today's as good as it getsss?

2009-06-20T11:16:00.000-07:00

see this tall gala kening baru grow girl? she like to make fun how I always look 10x shorter when I stand beside her and I hate it! we always plan to meet on the next day but when we wake up we dont contact each other at all but instead chat on facebook and comment each other's quiz like nobody's business then in th end tark klua~ hahaha. nevertheless, i still love her as much as i did when we were in primary skoool~

we were otp watching anugerah reruns and i keep on laughing until my tummy hurts coz got one guy who looks like Nathan from Hi-5 then another one who looks like Syami hahahaha kimek twin siul~ most of them like bapok then sum so obvious lor cukor kening then eksyen suare power padehal tgh tarkde nafas hahahaha my only favourite is sein ahmad wheeeeeee but boyfie still th cutest dun worry!

now chatting with mayasarah, acap and kenjisan. whye everyone talking abt beach party? i dun care siahh! zikri nark eksyen kenjisan jerhh padehal2~ tmr i wanna go forh haircut before my sister leaves me alone forh genting! ):

okehh now im laughing i think im gna cry~ zikri said smth paling siak dlm dunie ini HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA im so tempted to put here tapy kuangaja gilerh babi siahhh hahahahahhaahaha!

tuhhh, da tebaaang

2009-06-20T09:00:00.000-07:00

On thursday night, there's this very skinny boy who drank raw eggs to make himself fat so i would be happy. he was waiting for me under my block playing with my kittycat. so i went down and after that we proceed to downtown to meet th rest at th chalet. they wanted to buy drinks so i brought them to the nearest 7-eleven to get liquor. that skinny boy da maot taw, he know his way around pasir ris readyy~ cute kann. i first thought it was at central but i forgot got new one open in front of my school so we went to that onee. thenn we head to pasir ris park and start pouring shots. i think i was already gone by th fourth shot and was going for th fifth but this sapau boy wont let me coz i have school in th mornin so i fell asleep on his lap~ i woke up and i see this handsome face asking me to go back to sleep but i didnt want to. i see them snorting liquor and it made me laugh coz it looks so funny and it also reminded me of that time at marina heehs rad should noe what im talking abt~ after drinking, th rest head back to chalet while th sweetest skinnyboy sent me home by 4am to let me rest forh school even if it means that he has to walk back to th chalet alone. but otw back i fought with him when i told him th truth. we sat down at town park and at that point when he said all those heartwrenching things, it made me cry thinking about th past. my favourite boy finally saw me cry like a stupid gembeng girl forh th first time.

what youh did forh me and what i did back to youh, was unfair. but then hearing youh say what youh once did makes me scared like hell even more. but youh said youh wna prove everyone wrong, that youh changed. and i believe youh. when youh talked about him, i start to realise youh might love him as much as i did. and at that point i felt like i wanted to be with youh forever.
one thing i hate about falling in love is that youh began give away yourh trust, love, security, everything all in th hands of another person. regardless of whether that special holder of yourh life will make youh or break youh. youh still give yourh all, hoping it will be th former. and when its not, yourh little heart in yourh chest explodes and youh began crying every night thinking why.

but i hope thats not how it ends in our part of th story~

Live Easy, Party Hard.

2009-06-17T03:45:00.000-07:00

Hi online diary,

Why does th holidays go by so quicklyyyy~ Tho sumtymes it doesnt feel like a holiday at all since we still have school almost every week! But then i ponteng most of th tyme so it shouldnt matter so much to me. Hehh. Um last weekend, I went to Malaysia coz my sister wanted to go so badly wtf~ Nothing interesting. We rode th Eye On Malaysia, boring like fuck nothing to seeee. My cabin's aircon was dripping so i sat on th floor like budo. Th 15min ride felt so longggg!

So anyway, i have rehearsal in a few hours but i havent go forh so long im scared i'll make a complete idiot of myself coz idk all th steps~ Supposed to go out with Shaheedah Bbygurl too but we'll see how. I keep paitao-ing youh so many times sorryyy! Soon keh soooon~

Im lazy to upload other photos coz im sleeeeeepy. Keh nahh, leftover vain pictures forh th past few weeks

Nitey nite, babiesssss~

I was almost happy again.

2009-06-15T02:47:00.000-07:00

whye today?

2009-06-10T21:47:00.000-07:00

Today, I woke up to many mxges. I looked to my watch. 1.08pm. I opened my eyes. I had a dream. I dreamed I saw Dinni. I dreamed I got to hold him and takecare of him. He looked at me. I gave him a hug. Everyone else was smiling. He was too.

I looked at my watch again. 11th June.

SJAB CAMP 2009

2009-06-10T05:45:00.000-07:00

I came back from camp dragging my bag home. I was so shagged like crazy I went home and slept without changing my smelly clothes nor washing my dirty laundry. I was THAT tired~ But then my mum came home and woke me up. She was scolding me like crazy and i was tooooo tired to layan her PMS. I went to my brother and asked what happened, found out mummy&daddy fought again. Haiyahh. Tark abes2. That tyme lagy siket nark cerai, py cerai suda lurhh~ kiterh lagy bahagie.

Anywayy, camp was alrightt. At first did not want to go at all so I didnt bring anything except tons of clothes which I threw in th bag. I liked where th sec3s are now more to being NCOs than baby cadets. I remember laughing till my stomach hurts when Khalis and i left Lucas alone when we had to lead th blindfolded cadets forh nightwalk. Haha! But then after that Sir made me go up to th hall alone to get th cadets upstairs and I swear I screamed till I almost fainted coz Siva was hiding behind th fucking wall since he thought I was a cadet. Prangai dog siul!

On Sunday morning after th hike, I tried to go up my bunk as quickly as possible without hurting my burning legs even more. I switched on my phone and read all my mxges. A teardrop fell after reading one particular one. I was like in a trance not knowing what to think or say. But i told myself its not on purpose and it wont happen again. Right..? Hais.

Overall, I've learned alot about leadership and endurance. Those whom I hated or I never bothered to talk to became friends. I've even learnt to work well with fellow NCOs and realised that Sir is one of th most admirable person I've known in Pasir Ris Crest.

These are only some of th pictures I got frm Wilson. Th files are so big nark mampus I gave up and went offline halfway.

Btw, Sargeant Fitri is so miyang can. Mintak kenerh sepak upside down siahh.

hahahahahhaha

2009-06-03T05:07:00.000-07:00

I wanted to find old photos when I laughed like hell reading Syahirah's blog. Syah, py bace yourh archives april 11 psl gutter kao pt lua toilet~ Aku ktawe sorg siahh bacerh tuhh! I can remember vividly th part where all of us smpai terbaring outside th toilet ktawe cm kena sampok abey kao tarek......... HAHAHA! K fuck it i'm still laughing~

i hate blogging without photos!

2009-06-02T21:19:00.000-07:00

I am so fucking angry.
All my files. Gone.
Pictures, videos, documents, bookmarks, gone.
EEEEEEEEEE AKU TUNGGU JERHHH MOTOR KAO MELETOP LAGYYYYYY! >:(

Grrr. Lighter note,
Today i spent th entire day at homeeee. Goodgirl kann~ I didnt go school, again. Was supposed to meet boyfie but I had rehearsal tapy in th end tark pegy jugak. Hurrrr. Thennn had to go for sushi lunch but I went to sleep~ Woke up, cook maggi, watch Skins (best show ever!) and now, bloggggg.

I'm gna do hair extensions sooooon coz I hate th way it is now and i want change! I have lists on many things to buy but im soo short on cash. Actually was planning to get a job at Hyatt Hotel coz they pay reaaally well but I decided to wait till th end of year since one month is too short. Shaheedah went ahead to get th job coz she's going forh private O's now~ Terus dapat siul dhie. The pay's 1000 a month. Wah cb. Rugi siah tark pegy! ):

Anyway, Ali just called asking me to go down to rc and join him coz he gt extra sejuk. Its so tempting but no thanks i must stop all this shit. Haiyah k la bye nark buat quiz pt facebook~

How can i be so heartless?

2009-05-29T05:40:00.000-07:00

sometimes it's easier to say you don't care than to explain all the reasons why you do.

My phone kept ringing over and over again. I set it to silent. 34 missed calls, 12mxges. 13mxges. 14. All i do is stare at it till the screensaver appears. The screensaver. Its a picture of youh. It vibrates again. I pushed th phone away. Can youh all please stop?

Youh have no right to say a single word about me, my choices, or my past. Youh weren't there. You didn't get your heart broken. Youh didn't watch my entire life crumble and fall. I made mistakes, maybe too much. But thats who I am. I make mistakes all the time. To be with me, youh have to cope with that. It was dangerous to be with me in the first place, but youh still decided to take the risk. And with yourh help, patience, care, I'm on my way to the right track. But suddenly, youh started backtracking. And we're fighting about th same thing once more. But didnt youh meet someone else every saturday too when youh were with me? Idk what else to do or say coz i know nothing would change th way youh think of me now. I may sound heartless and selfish but idk how to put in words how im feeling right now.
it's amazing, really, just how much pain the human heart can take.

When things are bad, we take comfort in the fact that they could always be worse. And when they are, we find hope in the the thought that things are so bad, they have to get better.

I wish someone would do that for me.

2009-05-29T04:42:00.000-07:00

why.

2009-05-27T21:31:00.000-07:00

i'll laugh down the hallway.
i'll smile all through class.
i'll talk during lunch and do my homework at night.
i'll talk to anybody and i'll be happy throughout the day.
i'll fool everybody because they wouldn't like me if they knew who i am.

babygirls, i love you

2009-05-23T08:15:00.000-07:00

I found this picture in my brother's old folders. Wah cb i feel so much fatter right now and i miss my hair! Nark cm gytu balek bulei? :'( Haissssss. I hate how much everything changed ever since that stupid mistake. Budooooooo~

I remembered during PE last tuesday, we were all told to stay in class to write about our achievements in this little handbook. While writing about 2oo7, syahirah rafikah and i suddenly reminisce about our lower sec days. We couldnt stop laughing remembering our sec1 singing test or when we were caught forh skipping class or the part where i got kicked out of the student council~ I caaaannot stop laughing just thinking about it. Lum kire lagy video2 kiterh! Hahaha! But one thing forh sure, we four were always together and were almost inseperable (:

This is the only sec1 picture I have of us together at camp. Haha! Mukerhhhhhhh~

Forh sec2, it was mostly trouble forh us. Suspension la, detention la, gadu la. Mcm2 uh problems. Then we always went as pairs like radiah&I and Syahirah&Raf since both of us kept skipping school and only attend sch like once a week? Then syah&raf binget with us coz they were made to do projects alone. Haahs. Terrible laahs. We always go as pairs and were rarely together.

Now we're Sec3 and its abiiit better than sec2. No troubles at all, more to studying. Andd, mostly its always th three of us instead of four coz got this girl right, she still havent kick her ponteng habittt! Quite boring without her around tho. Heehs, rindu kamu tawu tark rakdon?! Hehe but I love her all the same~

I still remember th day Radiah cried forh me in class when she heard what happened to me. I swear I was so touched. And the three of them visiting frequently when I couldnt come forh school.

And idk whye i suddenly blogged about this. Haahs. Youh guys make me laugh all th time, gave me a shoulder to cry on, someone to listen to my problems. Youh made my schooldays something to look forward to.
I LOVE YOUH BABYGIRLS! <3

syahirah for you!

2009-05-22T20:19:00.000-07:00

muhammad rain gaga

2009-05-20T02:09:00.001-07:00

Hiiiii! *waves

Good morning, readers (:
I got alooot to blog about. Heeee!

I received all my results for MYE. Average lahhs. Cant say im happy coz im not but i cant say im not satisfied either coz this is what i get for studying last min and missing a term of school! During F&N, we all found out that every single on of us received an F9. I find it quite funny. I was sooo bored and Syahirah didnt want to entertain my nonsense plus Ryan went home so I talked to Adli&Glen the whole three periods. Boring kan! ):

So on Thursday, we had our water rocket programme. Syahirah was my partner so we named our pet rocket, Muhammad Rain Gaga (: While launching, I had to wear these james bond shades and the fucking water blast in my face and got my blouse wet! Overall, it was fun. AT FIRST. But th weather was like 120Degrees and me and syahirah stopped talking altogether coz we had noooo mood. When we went to th hall, the aircon was like heaven siul and i was so tempted to sleep on the wooden floorboards~ Oh yah! On that day, I cannot tahan how KAYPOOOOO people are! Rumours spread so fucking fast in this kaypo school. Tark sabar jerh korg tgk kiterh bergadu eyy! Wait long2~

Okay Friday i didnt attend school. Felt so lethargic and all I wanted to do was sleeeep. I went forh CCA since Syah&Raf came over to my hse and i hated it! Kay th part where I was selected forh th outdoor performance forh PRCS 10th Anniversary, i dun mind. I took it as a privilege. I looked around and I saw other UGs, there were very very very little sec3s. I was quite happy that at least I got Fateha and Aini to accompany me. But then i realised they were only in-charges and didnt have to take part. Da sedei gile siul but that one i keep quiet. Then the irritating lower secs were pushing me around and treated me like a little dog. I felt so small yet i didnt have th heart to scold coz i felt i didnt have th right. Hmph. Majok siul ):

Kei laaa, i miss apic so so much k bye.

you just have to be happy and everything else will fall into place.

2009-05-13T10:18:00.000-07:00

I dun realised its 0121AM till i looked at th computer. I'm so sorry dear i overshot yourh 1130 sleeping time~ I'm studying F&N like crazy since noon but i cant remember a thing and i'm missing out everything for chemistry even tho its the very first paper. Wahh die ):

Btw, my blog song is irritating me so much. Is it doing th same to youh? I just skip to th other songs but slowly im getting sick of it too. Kay need to change sooooooooon~

Lighter note,
I spent my remaining time watching every live performance of Lady Gaga on Youtube.

She is a m a z i n g .

Its now 0129 and i need to sleep okei wish me luck forh my papers in 5 (?) hours coz i need it like crazy!

it gets so hard to walk away

2009-05-12T00:57:00.000-07:00

Hello angels&devils,
I had Physics exam today. I think I stared at the clock more than I stared at my paper. Oke anyway, me and my sister made cupcakes for mummy's day! After that played with th remaining icing till i gt icing all over my hair. Wah cb. Our first attempt and its not bad tawww~ Can be a gd housewife readyyy! :p

Mummy was happy eventho we made a huge mess out of her kitchen. Haahs~ Hope youh liked the rose and cupcakes (:

So today i went to school with swollen eyes. Haiyahh, stupid contact lenses~ to those kaypos who kept asking over and over again, I use spectroflex maxieyes. Not freshlook or freshkon or what shit. Youh can find it at tamp interchg coz i dunnoe any other places which sells that brand.

I've just finished watching gossipgirl. Chuck is sooooo sweeeeeet. Can i have a boyfriend like that? Oh wait. I already have. heeeee~! I want my hair to be this thinnnnn. Now its so dry since i keep dyeing ): boooooooo

see th difference btw nokia and sony ericsson camera quality. i hate nokia cameras. i miss my cybershot. ):

kay la bye bitches.

change for the better

2009-05-02T22:13:00.000-07:00

Hello readers,
Saturday i had no moooooooooood.

I only layan three people: radiah, mairah and apic

So first we were all heading to town with many people idk and idc also. I just plug in my music and ignoring everybody except Rad.

And I saw MJ after so long. Actually I dun even recognize him with his botak head and big shades until he tegor. Weird kan even though we live next to each other, we havent meet for how many months readyy. But its okay, I promised my favourite boy I will stop seeing them anymore~

I had to leave my favourite boy early coz I had plans forh movie marathon. I wish we dont have to stay so far away then i can draw on him everyday. Da tebaaang! ♥

Last night i couldnt sleep coz I was alone in th room and th thunder&lightning was so strong. It made me thought of judgement day and how much sins I had done.

And isk, thank youh for yourh advice and guiding me to through. i've learned to make better choices and think my way through. Youh got potential to become a psychiatrist/stalker one day! (:

dun wana gooooo

2009-05-01T00:31:00.000-07:00

Korg da tgk cite Yazid Pakai Lampin pt suria?

Klaw da tgk, cute kaaan cite dhie! I spent my morning watching this cute telemovie abt a geek being bullied by his friend since primary school so he make th bully botak. Cute gilerh siahhh~

Okay soo yesterday was my first paper. I dun think I did as well forh english. I wrote shit. I think malay was easier~ today I have noo plans coz daddy wants to ship me off to malaysia. again. but tomorrow i have social studies and i cannot miss if i want to pass that subject. so i hope that will give him a reason to stop forcing me to go!

I was surfing th net when i came across this,

It reminded me of last friday and I couldnt stop laughing. Wanted to mxg my favourite boy but he's outside so dunwan to disturb. Youh know i know the rest dunnoe~ :D

I need contact lenses. Clear contact lenses. I bring my glasses everywhere I go. Life is a total blur without it. But i dowan to wear it 24/7 like maner pey slenge. i need contacts! ):

Okay so before I head off to malaysia (or not),
I've changed my playlist coz im so sick of it.
Aaaand here's a nice video to make youh guys stop and think.
till then bitches!

DID YOU KNOW?

dun ignore me this way.

2009-04-28T00:38:00.000-07:00

im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry

i thought youh had faith in me

2009-04-27T06:33:00.000-07:00

I feel so stupid.
Today i couldnt concentrate in school for th entire day.
Exam is in 2days. I wish I can just focus easily but I cant.
I was horrible to everyone at school today. Now I feel bad.
I called, mxg. No response.

I hate going to sleep with a heavy heart.

black is back is back is back

2009-04-25T20:37:00.000-07:00

Oh, did i tell youh that my hair is now black?
I cant walk in school with Ryan saying, "Fuck siahhh, Damn obvious still never kena caught!" Or when I walk under sunlight, people wont give me th kimak-menyampah-siul-ni-pompan look coz theres nothing to see.

Its black. :(

cut cut cut me so deep

2009-04-25T19:21:00.000-07:00

Good morning readers.

Today is a nice Sunday morning.
Everyone seemed to be sleeping.
Even 'Tom&Jerry'.

Saturday boring semacam.
I didnt get to meet my favourite boy coz he was busy helping his brother move. Hmmmm. In the morning, i got woken up by a call from Kecyk asking me to cepat siap2 meet dorg pt downtown. Blang dhie okey2 py tido balek smpai kul 1. Then sempat agyy dudok depan com tgk 90210 aruu klua. Hahahaha. Prangai siul~

On Friday, I had to settle a few things with my family.
Even so, I liked Friday. I get to spend my afternoon with someone I loved most. (:

Tomorrow is my baby Lina's birthday.
I dun think she reads my blog but i'll post it up anyway in case she gets her internet back~

Happy birthday, baby girl.
Yourh fifteen now, like me! ;)
Even though we seldom meet, I miss youh very very much.
I missed how people would mistake us for twins.
And how I come to yourh house to watch MTV everyday.
Have a sweet birthday, Wan Nur Amalina ♥

ku hanye mahu org teman mengadu.

2009-04-23T01:13:00.000-07:00

today i cried otw home.

i feel like drinking.
it takes all my problems away.
but sadly, it creates more problems forh others.
i wish im stronger to handle all this.

bleahhhhhhhh

2009-04-20T04:47:00.001-07:00

Hi blogspot.

I'm feeling th usual dun-talk-to-me-i-will-ignore mood. People called and mxg but i dun bother to check nor reply. Hmm. I'm having a terrible terrible dilemma. Rad said I have to make a choice soon and im starting to wonder if i will regret in time to come. Ahhhhhhhhh~

Krane tuh assembly by SAF apacella and tuh gile rain syahirah, i started liking one korean song. But im still singing the song beautiful in school coz its forever stuck in my head. I will put this song on repeat until im fucking sick of it. Heh okay. K bye ku bored.

I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful.

thought i could be strong, but its killing me

2009-04-18T23:09:00.001-07:00

Saturday night was a nightmare ):
Actually before 8 it was alright coz i got my three babies with me. To me, nothing ever goes wrong when we're together. (:

In th morning, I was late forh th social study test. Apic woke me up at 6 but i keep pressing silent until 7. Haahs sorryy~ Was last to finish th test, tu pon maen hantam. After sch, had a talk with Ms Chua thenn helped Syahirah do her eyebrows. Haahs cute uhh lu~

Met Apic at interchg at around 10. Panas yerhh nauzubillah! Mcm masok nerake gytu~ From interchg, to whitesands, to town park, to cheers downtown, to pasir ris park and lastlyyy 424. Both of us were soo sleepy by then. Ni kudut only got 3hrs of sleep la kann): Waited forh Radiah to come then he sent us homeee. Thank youh forh th kinder joy and rugby keychain HAHA~

Went home to change and meet th other two. Surprisingly, this is only th 4th time us four went out together. After chging like more than 8times (?) Me and rad were late forh th movie. Hahaha. Sorry laaa! Kiterh smpai lari 2.4 pt marina tawuu~ Malu siak smuerh tgk. Hahahaha!

I give 17Again 4stars. I almost cried. Lagy sikeeet oni ey~ Bukan cm makcik memekak tuh pat blkg. Ktawe da biseng, lagy2 part nanges. HAHA. I cannot sit still at th part where Zac Efron goes to school in his sports car. *melts* sumpah aku cm pompan tebiat. Hahaha! Must watchh! super sweeeeet, nark suami gytuu bulei~?

After the movie, i saw smth on th next seat. Ape lagy, amek uh. It was a pink LG KF350 Ice Cream :D Freeee phone. One problem, handphone dhie batt low.

saperh2 aderh lg charger? :(

After that head to foursticks. Apic was there as well but he left after awhile to go Marina. I stayed and everything starts. Ernie came and she was th one pouring shots forh me.

We walked to Marina and I caaaannoooot stand the part when I saw that Yana. Lei ckp agy 'Ey syafeekahhh'. Mengamok siahh. I know whats past is past but I can tell youh this, we will never be friends. No matter how nice youh are to me, how youh feature me at friendster, I will never forgive youh. Youh knew. But youh still continue. I can never ever ever fucking forgive what youh done to me.

I shouted in marina and was complaining here and there until Rad had to cover my mouth. They brought me up and they left me one by one. Nabey tengteng. Apic was th one always ending up having to takecare of me. I'm soo sorryyy b. This is th last. Da serik sei. I promise. ):

Tanak menyusahkan dhie lagy so I didnt ask him to send me till PR. Went hme alone and kenerh kacao siahh. Th entire cabin was full of matreps and I was th only girl. Kimekk. Naseb tarkde pape jadyy.

Today, when I woke up my head hurts so bad.
I called Apic at 3am coz i couldnt sleep but his pp8 was low. Haiyahh.
I'm not doing this again.

wheeeeeeeeee~

2009-04-17T07:14:00.000-07:00

Today, I was paying zero attention during english period. I was busy memorising th F&N textbook forh th recess test when I heard my name. I look up then saw raf look at me with th kening naek2. I realised Maliah and I were th top for our essay test. Its an honour to be in th same range with Maliah btw. Especially when i missed 1term of school. Haahs.

APIC MAT KOTAI SEEEEE I TOLD YOUH I CAN MAKE YOUH PROUD BAYBEHHHHHH~!

leftover pictures

2009-04-17T06:54:00.000-07:00

red wine

2009-04-17T05:31:00.000-07:00

Hi darlinggggs. (:

Internet is back uh ey. Heee.
First, thanks forh th wishes and posts, korangg~

Idk what to say abt 14th April. In th morningg, The first few mxges i got, NONE of them were from my bbygirls or boyfie. Kei i ignore. Called rafikah to go school together. She didnt do anything, just talk like hari biase. Syah pon samerh la kann. Then in school, they buat budoo also. Tidak mengapa. I asked azlin, mane rad. "Ah, dhie tark dtg skola". Kei ni part da binget sket. I ignore. Class also alot ppl tark dtg. So senyap and boring. Starting frm there i got no mood.

After school lagy sot nark mampos. I argued with someone otp. Was sitting at th stairs at the block outside school then tu chibye cikgu kambeng dtg. I was lyke, aperh nih? Kat lua skola pon nark carik psl? Since gt lollipop in my mouth I just buat budo and keep quiet. In the end he confiscate my birthday bracelet and say I show attitude. My only favourite bday present he take away. And padehal all th way I didnt talk back or tunjok prangai. Sumpah darah naek siahhh. I just walk off and it took me awhile to realise I was crying.

But everything after that changed. First majok bwh block and ignored Azlin, Rina, Mira and Farouk. Th rest were talking to that cb dog teacher. Ali Imran called to wish me then i started complaining to him abt everyone dun care abt my bday. I was facing th back when I suddenly hear ppl singing happy birthday so loudly. I turn around and saw my schmates bringing a cake, singing and telling me dun cry anymore. Sumpah sweet gilerh siul. Tros ali ckp, "kau tol tark tol tarkde org kesah. Haha go enjoy kei small girl" then he laugh and put down. Hahaaa. Raserh paisey kjapp oii~

After eating cake, kenerh simbah dgn coke. Prangai siahh! I took Rina's phone so she cannot pour summore. HAHA. Dhie tark puas hati nark cmpak tepong agy~! Nabey tengteng. Nabil tark psl2 kenerh coz I ran and hide behind him py in th end, mine was still th worst.

Sorry boi cinerh krane terpakse jady mangse. Hahaha

The rest went forh cca while athirah, mira and rina sent me home. Thank youhh sygs. Got back, my family dun seem to care or celebrate. Found out apic mxged many times but i just didnt receive. Stupid phone. Where's th person yg nark bagy phone baru? ):

Thank youh to Syah, Raf, Rina, Azlin, Athirah, Mira, Nabil, Farouk, Haikal and all th others.
Overall, only schmates made my day enjoyable. Other than that, I had a pretty normal day.

i've given too much

2009-04-12T02:30:00.000-07:00

My internet is down.
Cable television isnt working.
The house phone is engaged.

Right now using my sister's Mac notebook to blog. Haiyahh. I got alot of things to say. But i guess it'll all can wait. I gotta go off soon since the battery's dying. I'm not feeling happy now. Neither am i sad. Maybe its just a mixture of both. Hmm. Idk~

2 more days.
Does anyone even care.

I'll be rockin like a rockstar

2009-04-06T06:55:00.000-07:00

I keep singing this song in school and to everyone who sits beside me till they get irritated. HAHA. Meaningful woii ni lagu, anerh korang tawu nih smuerh~ But touching lahh kan ni video? I want to be like her actually. Though food keeps calling my name till I became obese. HAIYAHHHH -_-

Soooo just now went to watch Confessions of a Shopaholic with only TWO of my best girls. Lagi satu lari ke mana ntahh. Haahs! I like th movie soundtrack~ I was like a pig eating the jumbo hotdog all by myself. Haha. Lapar kan! Mcm phm jerh nark jady anorexic. HAHA. After that got summore fatfood and take stupid photos and talk crap about everything we can ever think of.

14th April is like innnnn.. exactly ONE week!
Haha. Someone planned to make a chalet forh me as a bday gift. Saaapp~ That is if he get his gaji in time. Neimindd good enough~ And my sister gave me Chocolate Mint Baileys as an advance present. She's th besttttt. I love her even tho she put a fake rat in my organiser just now until i almost scream during flag raising~ Cb!

Here's my wishlist this year. Someone please make me happy and get me one?

BAILEYS CREME CARAMEL
ABSOLUT
A QWERTY KEYPAD PHONE
BOMBAY SAPPHIRE

KINDER JOY SURPRISE CHOCOLATES
Heeee. If can I also want my sister's ipod touch....... HEHH. Keh da stop it. Im lazy to type summore. I want to see boyfie soon. I miss him already ): K la bye chibais~

YOUH CAN TALK ALL YOUH WANT BUT MY SKIN IS REALLY THICK! :D
*inside joke*

drink drink drink

2009-04-04T23:52:00.000-07:00

Good afternoon readers (:
My blog is not private anymore! Heeeh.
But I might be changing link soon due to sum dogs so get ready to update korg2 nyerh links~!

Saturday was very kecohhh.
Da tark ingat dunie woii~
Rina came over to my crib first then we head to Adelphi since Rad keep calling saying th rest da gone. Met Ernie, Kas and th rest idk. Haahs! Wanted to anta kas but halfway met Maya instead. Otw saw shaheedah. Hmm. Feekah ngn Maya jiwerh la weii! Duerh baju tangan panjang, black and white, handphone samerhh, duerh2 aderh hairband, etc~ Cute kann kiterh. Tawuu (:

Met Kim, Caca, Irene, Sepet and Mickie. Then met my dearest Apic to pass him his pp8~ After that head to steps to wish Fieza O happy birthday. Then what ey? I forgot. HAHA. I only know that Radiah said I was irritating whining here and there. Then skaly Apic came and took care of me. Malu la he saw my prangai gytu ): He then sent me to take cab with Rad. Go home, membute tross!

Kei now I got lotsa assignments to finish. Jap agy nark py central photocopy SATU FILEEEE. Kimekk. Confirm lamerh tunggu~

Kei la i love my boyfriend bye!

Radiah, Mayasarah, Rina, Miratrysha
Thank youh guys forh taking care of me
I'm so sorry for troubling youh guys~

Muhammad Syafiq Bin Mohammad Jani

2009-04-04T23:08:00.000-07:00

On Friday,
I met up with Apic and his bpk2 friend after school.
Wanted to surprise him by coming to Gombak but end up him coming to PR instead.
He's so sweet i love him many many. ♥

addicted

2009-03-28T02:23:00.001-07:00

Hello babies, missed me?

I had alot to blog about but right now my mind is currently blank. Haahs!

Okie lets see,
Friday I went to Escape Theme Park. The only memorable part was th haunted house which wasnt scary at all so we stayed inside and do stupid things and scare other idiots who were coming in. Theres this grp of girls whom the guys scared away smpai patah balek siul. Hahaha! I couldnt stop laughing~

Saturday last min FUCKED UP plan skaly kena tarik pegy msia. Sibye tol. I know I fought with my parents over something unreasonable and they forever will be. Luckily my sister accompanied me if not i'll be emo-ing in th car alone for 4hrs~ I hope Daddy just go away. I hate th way he treats Mummy.

Monday, the night before school, my brother's motorbike blew up. Sumpah tark bedek. Around 1AM I saw heavy smoke outside my window. I looked down and saw the bikes below on fire. I went to my sister, she dun care. I tried to wake my brother up, he dunwan to wake up. Kei neimind. Suddenly, there was a big explosion smpai api naek up my window which was 11 STOREYS HIGH. Then smuer org aru nark bangon tido tengok! Ninabueh~ My brother mukerh nark nanges when he saw his bike. Awwwwwwwwh~ I went down with him to give statement to police. Ramai ppl sebok2 maynnn! Saw Hamka and his friends plus my cousin, Hakim also. Police ckp either org sengaje meletopkn or my neighbour's engine tark tutop then my bro's bike pon kenerh. Kesian dhie~

Tuesday, WOKE UP LATE ON MY FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.
Kimekk. Bad start. But school was okayy. After recess, i dont have any friends coz they all left me for NCC ): I sat at syahirah's table and talk2 with ryan and shiv during maths. After school, stayed in the canteen with siti, haikal and nabil tay cinonehhhh. I was sooo bored I left them and met Shaheedah. Talk2 alot and found out that she was at th pondok near my blk when th bike blow up. Tark nampak dhie siul~ I miss her alot alot alot.

Okay this post is long. Haha.
Tonight maybe going to her crib to buat keje2 haram smpai tark ingat dunie~ Heeee!

Remember, 8.30 switch off yourh lights! Save gaia kei. Huak~
Bye bitches!

old photos

2009-03-18T12:06:00.000-07:00

Hi korangg. I cant sleeeeeeep~ Now its 2:15 and chatting with radiah, isk stalker, kakak kecyk, syaaban, nabil tay and sum weird guy who looks like 5yrs old. Haha. Im still sad that my hair is short :( Sad sad sad. I was browsing my old pics then i realise how fat/dark/ugly i am now. Im supposed to finish all my assignments by monday but neimindd i will post all my old pictures to make me feel better! :D

K mimpi indah smuerh! (:

i dont really like youh anymore

2009-03-17T12:06:00.000-07:00

THIS POST WILL BE VERY RANDOOOM. IDK WHYE. HAHA. TARK SUKE, TARKMU BACER. WHYE I TYPE CAPITAL? I ALSO DUNNOOOEE. LIKE MY NEW BLOGSKIN? COZ I LIKE. HEEEE. I LOVE LADY GAGA. SHE'S SUPER CLASSY EVEN WHEN SHE'S DRUNK. I ALSO WAN LYK DAT! CURRENTLY CHATTING WITH ISK, MY NEW STALKER. COOL OR WHAT? HAHAHA. JUST NOW FAIZ KUCYK GAVE ME RELATIONSHIP ADVICE. HAAHS WTH~ TADY I FOUGHT WIF SUMONE OTP. IDK LAHHS. FUCK ALL THIS SHIT MAYNN! IM SERIOUSLY CONSIDERING HAIR EXTENTIONS. I MISS MY LOOOONG HAIR~ TU LAA TANGAN GATAL LAGY LA KAAAAN! HAIYAHH HAIYAHHHHHHH. I WNA BE ANOREXIC CAN? SO WHEN I DIE, MY REASON WOULD BE 'ALL I WANTED WAS TO LOOK BEAUTIFUL'.

OKAY LATERRRR.

2009-03-16T09:38:00.000-07:00

All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohhh 

2009-03-16T06:07:00.000-07:00

Hi blogspot.
I got nothing to blog about.
I just met Lina few hours ago.
I didnt know we were in the same bus till we got off.
Same incident with Acap also. Haa kay whatever~

I cut my hair.
Now i want a wig.
This is what happens when I dont listen to Syahirah&Raf.
So short :(

Haiyahh. Kei neimindd. Korang, ku aderh kucheng. Sumpah, tark bedek. HAHA.

But its not really mine lahhs. She just like to sleep my house. My mummy smpai belikan dhie shampoo, hairbrush ngn friskies! Mekk~ Me and my sister name her Pochacco (po-chek-ko) coz we got th name from Hello Kitty&Friends show. Cute kannn~ But I scared she eat my chombi how?

Gemuk kan sygku niii. Hahaha! Tido jek tawuuu. Samerh cm owner dhie jugak lahhs. Heee~

Just now I was chatting with some people.. And it makes me feel very sad and stupid at the same time. I got used, cheated, lied, and everyone knew but me. I was at my worst state then. Now im alright, youh come running back. How is that fair to me? Youh know how malu I feel when ppl talk to me about this? And everytime I throw temper at youh, youh ask me whye i repeat abt th past. Whye sum more? This is not th first time. Youh already swear&promise yet youh did it again. Now youh expect me to trust youh again? Youh think saying sorry will make everything fine again? Fuckshit~ I just dunnoe what to do with us anymore. Youh always make my life full of misery and troubles.

Behind every untrusting girl,
is a boy who taught her to be that way.

2009-03-11T22:37:00.000-07:00

i get happy whenever i have a playlist with good songs.
i get even happier when i have a
boyfriend whom i love so dearly.
and i get the happiest when i know that
he loves me just the same. ♥
are youh happy today? (:

Just livin' my life,

2009-03-09T10:59:00.000-07:00

Hi. So Sunday I went down to Raffles to the ARTS House with my sister for her stupid project. I thought it was going to rain but it was fuuuucking hot. I didnt bring my phone coz i stupidly took the one without pp8. Walande. After that we went to meet with abg&mummy to eat. When he drive, i swear teringat psl tuh accident~ That day felt like a happy family day WITHOUT my father. I wish we were like that all the time.

Saturday night, I thon with the same three at East Coast. Nothing muchhh, played with cards and went to 7eleven to get booze. Kecyk got me two soft toys from that stupid 1dollar game. HAHA awwwwwhhh~ makasehhh! I was abit drunk then and I think I said alot of things which I did not mean at all. Im sorryyyyy. Anyway, before that met Fizah at KFC. Rindu rindu rinduuuuuuuu! Saw Bopeng and Rahim and sum guy idk too. Haha.

Hello matrep~

Nothing to seee :D

Joan tgh otp, ku maen petek jek. Huak~
Beforeee,

After

On tuesday I went to school to get my uniform and assignments. I was surprised to find out that we have a new PE shirt. Haaaa daymn should have bought red~ When I step into the school, everyone gave me a one of a kind look. Errrrrrr. Haha. Okei I gtg bye!

2009-03-08T09:16:00.000-07:00

No matter what, once in your life, someone will hurt you. That someone will take all that you are, and rip it into pieces and they won't even watch where the pieces land. But through the breakdown, you'll learn something about yourself. You'll learn that you're strong. And no matter how hard they destroy you, you can conquer anything.

Unlike her, I was there for you through the tough times, when you actually needed a friend. Maybe it doesn't mean anything to you anymore, maybe it never did. but it meant a lot to me, you meant a lot to me & you still do.

What goes around comes around.
That's what people say.
so all the pain you caused me
will come back to you someday.

Sometimes I want to go to sleep and never wake up.
Give me something to believe in, coz i dont believe you anymore.

2009-03-06T19:43:00.000-08:00

This photo was taken minutes before the stupid accident.

I only remembered the car was drifting here and there and finally crashed at something i think it was a motorbike. By then my glass window shattered into pieces and someone was shouting, "smuerh klua klua klua". I climbed out of the fucking car and walked towards the pavement. Some say I was going to faint but all I know was blood dripping from my face. My head was bleeding non stop. It was like in a movie. I looked around and saw the motorist screaming in pain and the taxi was smashed. I know someone was shocked to see me in that state and hugged me so tightly. I wanted to cry but I didnt. All I thought then was I wanted my mummy. So badly.

I'm never ever doing that again.

2009-03-04T10:38:00.000-08:00

Hello babies~

Its 2.43AM and I just came home from airport coz daddy's going Texas. Sister couldnt come coz i gave her my chicken pox HAHA! Kacao orang lagy kannn. Padan mukerh luu!

Tady petang gy Bugis to get my wallet from that china lady who found it. Pey leceyy. I had to speak chinese coz she dont understand english. In th end I asked Joan to talk to her while I sit one corner with Ahmad, Kecyk and played with Baby Jena. Dpt tawu kiterh bbual otp py padehal org dhie pt depan jekk! Ninabueh. Then I wanted this $116 topshop dress and escada perfume and I already asked someone to get it for me :D Hehhhh! Spatot dress nari dpt py tark lepas soo get smth else but idk whatt~ Maybe dhie bagy besok? Nark tgk!

Im like addicted to this stupid slumdog millionaire soundtrack and idk whye. Haha! Bnyk2 lagu, lagu india ku dgr. Huak! Py best budoooo. Korg aner tawu nih smue~

Ni gamba pat airport. Nothing better to do.

Oh, Happy Birthday Addy!
Yourh eighteen already!
Dah jadyk abg2 uhhs dhie.
Hope youh have a great one today~

Btw I still miss him. Haiyahh. K im so sleepy. I want to sleep. Gdnite korang2!

2009-03-02T02:20:00.000-08:00

i got no mood to blog about my life coz i got no pictures.
i got no pictures bcoz my phone no camera.
i got no camera coz my phone spoil and no memory card.
i got no memory card coz that matrep take.
now i want a new phone :(

actually got alot of pictures lahh py smuer dlm handphone dhie. hmph. feekah ngh pokai skrg eeee tark best nihhhh~ padehal past month loaded siul. but money always gone on cab coz im such a lazy pig. haha. hmm.. ku boring ku boring ku boringggg. tady pagy pegy ica building to make IC. mukerh masai abes, sumpah tark bedek. pastu wallet hilang, naseb org jumpe then wednesday py bugis to collect~ i cant wait for thursday, heeeee secret!

To that special someone, I've missed youh. So so much. Yes, youve changed my life in so many ways and caused less ups than downs but it was never yourh fault even though sumtymes i keep blaming youh. It was ours. Now that yourh gone, I think of youh sumtymes. I wonder where youh are, whether yr alright and whose hands yr in right now. At first I thought yourh face would disappear in my mind and eventually I would forget how youh look like. But Im lucky to have found a photo of youh which I swear I will keep forever. I hope youh will receive th best in life and better people would takecare and treat youh well. Klaw Tuhan izinkan, insyaallah maybe one day we might meet again. I want youh to know I made this decision coz I thought its whats best for youh. That I could not possibly give th greatest to youh but maybe others can. My heart breaks to see youh taken away frm me forever.. Coz I was actually beginning to love youh, Dinni Mikael.

2009-02-24T21:41:00.000-08:00

I feel so monotonic today.
All my plans for today cock up.
Thought of meeting the girls instead but I realised today's Wednesday.
To that cinoneh ahmad, youh die. Kanina. Spoil all my plans.
I had alot planned for today ):

Its okay, its okay.
I'll find something to do.
.... Like do my undone homework..

....KIWAAAAAAAK GERAM SIUUUUL!

2009-02-22T21:29:00.000-08:00

I havent seen this skinnyboy for so long already. I still owe him 10sit ups. Standby chocolateeeee! :D

Oke anywaay,
On saturday night, i went out and torn with Kecyk all. Hmm.. Kecoh luhs dorg. Gado sini saner, malas nark explain. I finally met abg ted. He dotes on me like soo much and treats me like his own little sister. Dtg jek, bagy duet. Mekk~ Baek pe sia. Haha! Wanted to drink with them but tark jady. Came back home at 5am then slept like a pig. HAHA

Today is like an embarassing day. Haha! Maluuuuuuuu la siul. Mukerh da mangkok gileee. Tark pena2 niek jadyk tawww!! Tros call this girl to citekan coz I was so paisey can!

Happy Belated Birthday,
Syahirah Mokkkkkk! :D
Sorry I wasnt around to celebrate with youhh.
But I hope you enjoyed it!
Aku masey malu taww pasal tady. Mekk~
HAHA k shh diam~

2009-02-20T09:21:00.000-08:00

After typing the previous post, mengamok gile sei tros proceed to Bedok Int to meet Kecyk. Lei bercinte tunggu dhie dtg. Lamerh siul. I kept quiet all the way. He was the one in the wrong whatt. Da smpai bedok, diam. Beli pp8, diam. Jumpe his friends, diam. Naek bus, diam. All th way he talk to me, feekah uat budo. Nark sgt kan prangai ginie. Sampaiiii satu part~ Dlm bus I was listening to music since I didnt wna talk to him, he gave me a big big hug. And he said things that finally stopped me frm being quiet (: apology accepted.

Went to parkway to meet his friends for th first tyme, felt abit awkward. Memories la kan tu tempat~ Thought of finding Ina pat drink stall py dhie tark keje. Walande. Wait at mac for Garfiz. Cute kan~ Met Sandy and I smiled and we became friends. Padehal dulu everytime her call divert to me, feekah maki. Haha! Prangai ass sia feekah :D We proceed to KFC to join Ahmad cinoneh and this fana girl called Ella. Namerh sedap, mukerh haprak siul. Step gerek jek ngn feekah. -.- Aru naek sec1 nark step maney pey. She talk I ignore. I cant be bothered with her. Lame shit sia this bitch. HAHA

I was very happy all th way. We walk around parkway and suddenly kecyk hug and carried me at Isetan entrance smpaaai Giant. Kiwaaak maluuuu smuerh tgk~ Hahaha. But it was so funn! I found out it was Sandy&Ahmad's 2months anni. Tpy krane tuh lahabao Ella, spoil jek relationship org. Mekk -.- Jumpe Joe but he otw to interview pt Swensens. My happy mood changed when someone came. I keep on looking at her coz mcm kenal gytu, then I realised who. Mcm budak budo sia akuu. I tried to diamkn jek but it was really hard. Tark suke tark suke! I tried to tahan but I cried on the spot. We talked and I pushed my feelings aside. Fuck th past right. Hmm.

Went back to them and Kecyk was being the sweetest to me. Sumpah tark bedek. It really was heartwarming. I ignored all th negative feelings and tried to have fun and I did. I was surprised I didnt feel hatred or the instinct to slap her face. Haha. I actually felt bad for her. But am I supposed to after what she caused?

Since Kecyk torn pt eunos, I dont want to join so Sandy and Kecyk sent me back. Thanks korg. Youh really made my day. Maybe tomorrow jumpe lagy okei ((:

To kecyk,
I realised in the end
Youh did show what I needed
But I was too blinded by your flaws to see
Youh did gave more than I asked
And Im sorry I only saw until now.

Syafeekah

goodbye, blogspot

today i ate like a fat girl

padehal lamerh lagy hahaha

i was in my room all along.

sape mau layan?

ILY BESTFRIEND

i want that michael jackson top

i know how to tie gaga hairbow do you do you!

chomby has a new friend named momok n_n

do you feel better now as she falls to th ground?

MALAYSIA HOME FORH THREE DAYS DAYS DAYS DAYS

GGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

I LOVE MY PEOPLE !

even a thousand miles cant keep us apart

:((((

im young, im fly

random random cannot sleep anxious!(*&*^%$$@

i feel like letting go..

good morning, august.

my dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room

happy birthday,

syahirah, get well soon

stupid heavy rain just now got me all wet

i used to be lovedrunk, but now im hungover

RIP MUHAMMAD CHARLIE OBAMA

heeeeeeeeeeeeee!

i spend too much time watching american tv shows

syafeekah is a geeky harry potter fan

shisha with schoolies

forever is over

whye does my posts have alot of quotations these days? hahaha youtube selowww

nabil, now i know tasik hijau where readyyy hahahaha!

Cassie: I didn't eat for 3 days so I could be lovely

its in th abc of growing up

ahchooooooooooooo

i didnt get to see MJ funeral on tv boooooo

hate wednesdays

home home homeboy, come on

i am ungrateful.

my favourite two

THE END!

nabeytengteng

lets put on a show

rather waste my time with you

asal sibuk?

thank youh forh making my day

humans are hypocritical

baby are you down down down

confirm lepas niy kene maki!

cant sleeeeeeep

:(

To Nur Atasha Binte Roslan,

wedding + unecessary photos

klaw youh ginie i lock youh pat dlm toilet tark bagy klua!

what if today's as good as it getsss?

tuhhh, da tebaaang

Live Easy, Party Hard.

I was almost happy again.

whye today?

SJAB CAMP 2009

hahahahahhaha

i hate blogging without photos!

How can i be so heartless?

I wish someone would do that for me.

why.

babygirls, i love you

syahirah for you!

muhammad rain gaga

you just have to be happy and everything else will fall into place.

it gets so hard to walk away

change for the better

dun wana gooooo

dun ignore me this way.

i thought youh had faith in me

black is back is back is back

cut cut cut me so deep

ku hanye mahu org teman mengadu.

bleahhhhhhhh

thought i could be strong, but its killing me

random random cannot sleep anxious!(&^%$$@